Why am I blogging in odd years ?

I just noticed from my archives the site that I have missed out 2006 & 2008 entirely.

What does it really take for one to miss 2 years really?

I could go ahead and say, well, I did other things. "I met so and so at that new place", "I am the newly appointed X of Y" and most commonly the "I am the youngest A to do B". All of these may not be true and even $$$ could have been the answer but these in the famous words of Edward Norton as Tyler Durden/Narrator in the movie Fight Club, “these will blow over”. They represent the bell curve region well within the radar of the civilized society. You have got your crutches, ambulances, paramedics, social security, medical insurances, HMO, chicken or mutton soup for your soul, Deepak Chopra, Ferraris, Rolls Royces, Buddhism, Islamic Extremism, Bvlgari, Rolex, , cakes, sugar syrup, mochachacococatta with cream & low fat milk, coffee, cigarettes & nicorrettes. So why bother? Thanks for the low fat milk by the way.

The ones we should be looking at or are forced look at, as in my case, is the orphans on the extremes of the curve who are swimming against the tide and some don’t even have their prescription eye glasses with them. Well sure as hell they are the ones who don’t really know to swim. This segment probably are the prodigal children of the society. They go way out in to the deep end and create all that is both beautiful & ugly in this world as we see. They do all that and slip away. They are needed for the balance I suppose. Where am I on the curve and can the fact that I lost 2 years be justified by this.

Ohh All this loosing an year, Boo Hoo, I just was not blogging so that doesn’t mean anything I could have been doing other things. I am the broken record ???

Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to bell curve lounge. Please keep your life meaningless enjoy the food and alcohol. We are ready for take off.

The Daffodil Alerts – Laugh like you mean it & only when you mean it.

You can see but you cannot touch is my most favourite among the 17 commandments (No guilt here). She has a mesmerizing, a loud, totally uninhibited, engaging and drawing smile. So sipping my cocoa i was sitting there for more than an hour just to get a good look at her face. I have already been seeing bits and pieces of it and that melodious smile has been ringing in my ear since i heard it the first time.

So it boils down to picking these alerts up. Moments that could form  the cornerstones in defining you life. I am sure everyone has their own honed mechanism to know when their daffodil alerts are coming through. If you don’t you are going to be missing a lot of it before you ever realise it. I am sitting there wondering how will i leave this place if the daffodil grew weary of smiling and finished conversing with its currently unknown yet crucial piece of the experience. The opponent here has to be given sufficient credit for in their absence I would have been able to sit and wonder as i did about the daffodil. I focus on a point in front of me, brushed aside all the thoughts and with ever so slight arrogant illusive notion of grandeur thought if i concentrated long enough i will able to hear the daffodil’s whisper. Despite the obvious fact that it was never going to possible for me to hear the whisper simply for physical reasons, I was willing to try it. You could say its because I didn’t have anything worthwhile to do. I would simply have to say its simply a unexamined answer from scared or preconditioned mind. I was pleased with the moment, simply because a seemingly innocuous incident has tripped me a bit.

I used to tell myself “I am ok, As along as i can smile to myself, I am ok”. lately there have been too many things that have been drowning me inside. This was a kiss on my cheek. I am going to be thanking “HER” for the daffodil and move on.

“Your are way out of your depth here boy/man/friend/buddy”, would be the common consensus from most people if i had cared to ask for an opinion and in their “infinite” wisdom and or the so perceived image that they project. This was soon proved right of course and surprisingly enough didn’t seem to bother me one tiny bit. I was pleased that i caught that alert and gave it its due notice.

The other parts of my life that were in throes of extinction didn’t change this feeling at all. That gave me strength, of what kind i do not know but it sure didn’t and I realized it. Looking to my next daffodil..